Wednesday, 10 September 2008

finish my art le.. glazin everythin..
but i juz havent finish crying..
trying to forget you by pressuring myself to STUDY math.. everyday..
unbelievable rite??
VIVIAN ANG ACTUALLY STUDY MATH EVERY SINGLE DAY..
sianz..
yea.. so wad?? i cried every single day??
i no need YOU ALL DE SUAN-ING 
my eye swell.. so??
my voice change.. so??
i become more slack in school.. so?? need you all to care ma??
thank you chew,diane,chika and selina for your care and concern..
wo mei shi.. 
its like me losing my 2 arms suddenly.. so painful..
but i will still wait for my little arms to grow back maybe in a few years or maybe weeks time..
hahax..

BTW... SONG LEE GOT NEW CRUSH LE..
hahaha... JY JIO-ING

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Tuesday, 9 September 2008

have been cryin for so many nite
tired le..
i noe there isnt any more chance for him to return back my side anymore
DO YOU KNOW THAT I AM REALLY TIRED??
i cry every single nite since that day..
till now its already goin to be like 3 weeks le..
yet i am still cryin dunno for wad..
why am i still havin this 1 % of hope inside my heart??
hopin that you will come back and live inside my heart again..
hopin that you will say you love me again..
dream lai de.. its impossible..
why are you the only guy who make me cry EVERY NITE??
why??
i am very weak now.. please dun blast me with any more pressure le..
PLEASE.....




i wan see you for the last time before you go into NS..
i wan hear you sing again for the last time...
is it possible??

Monday, 8 September 2008

i found out tat i had this habit of online-ing and to type blog's URL in side my URL bar..
dunno why... i stop reading my buddy's blog.. and dunno why i always go to someone's blog and cry over there..
yes i cried everytime i visited that blog...
reading de last message... or even hear songs like yang cong or even wo bu pei, i will cry..
and also bu neng shuo de mi mi...
dun dare to tag or wad ever...
afraid that you will hate me...
why am i crying for you every single night??
why??
i cant sleep too..
why...
since crying cant make me feel tired anymore... maybe....
haix...
why am crying sooo hard??
because of HIM??
i dunno... 
many said that i should forget him and let him go..
dont you all ever think how painful it was??
the hurt.. everything.. 
only care about ownself nt others.. only know how to use words to hurt ppl..
nanei??なぜ??
皆がiをまだ知っているように彼を愛しなさい。 私によっては彼が私を残してほしくない。しかしそれは事実である。as everyone noe.. i still love him.. i dun wan him to leave.. but thats de fact he going in for his national service..
私はなぜ叫ぶことここにだけか。いるか。
but WHY am i crying here alone??

Saturday, 6 September 2008

"i will TRY my best to be strong"
looking that quote on top.. i feel that that rather IMPOSSIBLE..
dunno why.....

Monday, 1 September 2008

this will gonna be a very long post.. read it or dont..
i always wondered why he wanna let me go.. but i still cant find the answer..
Why must we let go of each other? why cant you accept the fact that i still love you??
This might be touching..  but you know wad??
i dont mind shedding for you.. cause i know that just 1 day, you will regret hurting me and you will regret letting me go..
you hurt me sooo badly but what can i do other than sitting here crying and waiting for you??
i cant steal your heart and i cant make you love me.. 
I'm sitting here all by myself just trying my best to stop thinking of you.. 
trying my very best not to pick up that penknife to slit myself..
trying my very best to cope it but do you know what situation i am right now??
Even when i close my eyes, i saw your image..
in class..
cant even concentrate in what i am suppose to learn..
cried in toilets, on my bed..
missing  you every second.. wanting you to be by my side..
looking at your photo in my phone..
missing you..
i dunno why i feel like this towards you.. i dont feel like that when i have break- ups with other guys..
你怎么连话都说不清楚
那温柔的痛我记得清楚
他站在我的面前
你经过我的身边
忽然之间心里又难过
为什么...
为什么我会有这种感觉?为什么我回一次的又一次地为你哭泣?
我不知道。
也不想知道。
我只想躲在一旁看着你,看着你没事的样子我就心满意足了。
你知道我很难过吗?我的心有多痛吗?
我想哭可是始终还是哭不出。
我想把我的心情唱出来,可是唱不出。
我只想对着天空轻轻的呼吸,
寻找我最爱的人在那里?
在慌乱中,搬箱倒柜寻找记忆。
 有一种爱的曾经住在我心里,
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣,
不懂爱情,我的心如此无力
最后我们分开了虽然还是朋友。
可是你知道做会朋友的情人想摆脱关系不太容易吗?
i got no strength to talk or to type anything out nw..
i only wann to cry..
missing you..
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3 words 8 letters..
I LOVE YOU
I MISS YOU
I WANT YOU..