Monday, 28 December 2009

BOOO!
here's a quick update of my christmas..
went out on eve with chun hao and his friends,NOT FUN ALRIGHT!
spend my christmas with eddy.
oh yea.. meet up with andrew on the 26. and watched ALVIN AND THE CHIP2!
and he said that i can impose the sound for alvin.
went dw to bishan..
meet robin and willie..
willie suppose to go club de. but in the end tio ps..
so went to BINCHANG RISE instead..
measure height over there. i'm still Stuck at 155...
till around 330am and left..
went to binchang rise on the 27 again for my customers><
oh yea.. did i ever tell you that i'm a image consultant for people?
hee~
went to meet mervyn(matthew's brother) @ amk hub b4 going to BCR.
today.... GONNA GO AND MEET SIS(FINALLY) for my mobile contract.
then then then then go to hub and meet my future band members.
OH YEAH... remember to miss me alright?
XDXD~

Wednesday, 23 December 2009

BOOOO!!!!
hey yo!
did nothing much today... and i dunno why... GEES
morning cab to school for campcraft...
after cc go salon~
trim my hair and got approached to be model again..
SIAN UHHH
this time round is not just hair show.. is like i have to chop my hair and do design and stuff...
well its not during holiday lea.. is on school days.. HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL THE NEXT DAY?
i think after the hair show i'll chiong down to my another salon for extensions..
DIE DIE ALSO WANT TO DO...
muhahahahha....
alright.. gonna meet marie for shopping on christmas eve.. then... SIS ALSO... for phone contract..
hope singtel do give me a good price for SE jalou...
i want that phone TO THE MAX!
XD
cause i really wanna that phoneeeee....
ZHIXIANGGGGGG buy for meeeeeeeee....
arbo buy me a super big shoulder bag for christmasss
suppose to go see my jay chou todayy...
but dint go in the end... too many ppl i heard..
with lin chi ling..
maybe next time...
dad is crazy.. brought 6 bottles of contact lenses solutions..
cause he said is super cheap... and ordered 3 pairs of coloured contacts lenses for me..
and i was thinking..
i already got my 2 year supply of enlarger lens.. WHY HE BUY 3 more pairs?
which means in total, i no need to buy contact lenses for 27 months.
WTH...
SO FUN CAN...
LOL
anyways... i seriously need to buy alot of things... ALOT...
i need a parka from stage..
BUT THE DESIGN I WANT.. iS CURRENTLY OOS!!!!
WHAT THE FUNNNN
and i want the stage hot juice charm....!!!
ALL OF THEM>.<
hee~
gonna buy hubby's latest album...
still thinking to buy the sg one or tw de...
but tw de nicer lea...
HAIS.. BUY BOTH! yes! BOTH...
and
BRO. get your camera back lea.... i wan go take around take pictures de lea....
if someone is willing to buy me a camera~
hais~
hee!
i'm still thinking what to give xiao gui when marie fly to tw..
hmms.. any ideas?
XD

Sunday, 13 December 2009

Tuesday, 1 December 2009

haven been updating my blog due to work...
it's my first work ya?
will blog more tml

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

不知爲何這種感覺會變成一種思念……
沒錯……雖然只是過了十天……不過感覺上好像過了十年。
你知道這種愛與不愛的想念嗎?
你知道這種恨與不恨的思念嗎?
你至少還有你的兄弟陪你。但我沒有。
或許你能向他們分擔一些你的問題。但我不能。
唯一只能用睡眠來麻醉自己。或乾脆一點不要睡。
這十天裏。有7天是睡不着的。兩天昏迷1天是因為其他人的安慰才能讓我不必哭着睡。
不知爲什麽,我總是把手機握在手心裏,一次又一次的撥着你的號碼,卻始終沒有勇氣按下通話鍵。
不知爲什麽,每當手機鈴聲響起時,一看到不是你的號碼,我的心又慢慢的沉落。
如果我不曾用心愛你,回首那一刻,淚水不會如此的不爭氣。但沒有你的日子,我的心情也美麗不起。
這種感覺就像放了很久的汽水,除了糖水以外,單調乏味。
我的小小日記寫下了我們的甜蜜,也寫下了我對你的思念
想和你分享你卻看不見。拋下我獨自遠走,這樣的你真是我曾經愛過?
沒有你的笑容,
連天空都不再有彩虹。
我背不動夢的重量。因爲我們的夢都太沉重
以為我們可以一起面對 一起承擔
但我們的天平,卻始終都無法維持平衡
夢的存在,只是,時刻,分秒都在提醒
要不斷的往前 一起飛翔。
或許你都不懂我勉強撐起的笑是虛偽的
裝出來的堅強是痛苦的。
當我需要一個擁抱的時候,你不在
當我需要一個肩膀的時候,你不在
看見街上一對對戀人時,卻發現我手中沒有你的溫度
走在街上 還是習慣找尋屬於你的味道..
風中有朵雨做的雲,風中有朵淚做的雲
雲的心裡全都是雨,我的心裡全都是你
天空又下起了雨,心中又想起了你。
好像忘記了很多很多事情
好像失去了很多很多東西
但是忘記了些什麼失去了些什麼
都是那麼的模糊不可界定
不清晰的記憶裡
我只知道
那些過往與曾經
會一並將那時的我帶走
讓一切身埋記憶
然後遺忘
天黑的時候 我远远陪着你
再小的闪烁 也努力放光明
当有天我在夜空里面
偶尔被发现
希望我眨眼 能感动你视线
想把小星星 排成爱的图形
为你的天空 点綴一些惊奇
即使像流星一闪而過
寂寞也情愿
不求你看见
只想为你发光 永远。
也許在不久之後,你我都變成熟了
如果在某個轉角遇見,
你是否會像當時的感動
是否還能像朋友一般
對我說一聲……
你還好嗎?

Sunday, 15 November 2009

Actually i dun really wanna go out today..
i wanted to sit at home. and wait for my phone to ring..
hoping that you will call me..
but in the end... red tea called me..
ask me if i wanna go out..
and i agreed..
walked around the whole cwp like many for 2 hours?
and ya...
right now i dunno how am i going to survive like this..
i dont even have the strength to.
i cry, i whine..
but i just dont have the strength to live in this world ALONE.
friends left. And now he left me.
i really dunno how am i suppose to continue to live..
i know i'm not as intelligent as you
but all i know..i cant give up on you now..
cause giving up is equal to asking me to end my life...
all i believe is..
if there is still love, there is still hope.

Saturday, 14 November 2009

因为你的坚持所以让我失去活下去的理念。
It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.
WTF...
i'm like so fucking messed up now.
how i wish everything was a dream...
you are always different to me...
i did so much for you and all you said was...
SORRY...
i don't need your sorry... all i need is just a good night message from you each day. thats all.
i wasn't hoping much in this relationship. seriously speaking..
all i want is just an update about you each day. is that so difficult?
tomorrow is out anniversary day. and you chose to break with me today.
You blocked me in msn eventually.. i know..
SO tell me.. how am i suppose to believe you when you tell me you love me with all your heart?
你最怕的东西发生了。you dont trust yourself.
you always dont.. 放棄你 放棄愛情,放棄了所有權利
連自己都知道這不公平
放棄你 放棄自己,放棄了愛的權利
放棄你 等於放棄我自己
你知道我不聰明所以我選擇放棄
放棄去猜該如何留住你 放棄了所有回憶..
放棄你 等於放棄我自己.
i wanna hold you back here.. can i?
i really want... how i wish you can hear me saying i love you right now.
how i wish i could hug you right now.
i'm cold dear... why aren't you here with me?
do you know that you got the power to make me feel very warm inside?
i miss ya...
but right now...
i feel like dying..

HEY all..
i'm back blogging.. sorry for not posting anything up here for long alright?
this is what i did for this 2 weeks of extended curriculum.
took MCs for days. 2 weeks of lessons, 10days, i took almost 5 days mc.
SICK uh.. flu bug came attack me.
doctor was like telling me not to go to school even today. But i think if i dont go to school today to at least tell mr seow that i cant attend the camp, i'm actually putting all the NCOs efforts into waste as they might need to do sudden change in the name list. CAUSE i'm a group ic myself. but yea..
I'm SICK...
Yesterday was daddy's 60 birthday..
went out for dinner with sis.
borrowed bro camera without him knowing.. but i think when he return from aussie he will know uhh.. causes is for dad!!!
hee~
went to Jwen house for overnight last sat.
fun. but i accidentally left my nose spray at home.. thus.. i use half box of tissue plus half roll of toilet paper just for my nose...
For the past 2 weeks, i only met baby like 2 or 3 times only.
because of some problems here and there. But never mind(= i know that it is only for now. Let time do the rest alright? on the 15/11 it will be our first month. but i don't think i'll have the mood to celebrate either..
Dear,
i'm worry about you.. take good care of yourselves when i'm not around with you..
will be praying for you also ya~ MUST have strong faith in GOD and believe that he can help you.
我們從牽手放手又牽手 走過來
願意為更懂你的心 spending all my life
每當情緒像海 你只抱我 從不催我講出來
我就明白 你是我的依賴
And yeas, i wanna say~
I LOVE YOU BABY!!!(L)
and next! i wanna say HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to EVAN YO, Baoxin and ERJIU~
meet up with jolene the other day...
her dog molested me..XD
bite my butt-.-
but yea.. i think he is the only dog that i dare to carry ehh..
hee~
ok back to my main topic...
13/11/09 is the end of my sec 3 life..
well.. people tell me that secondary school's life is the most fun.. but i dont think so. i think..
mixing with people who is racist-minded. mixing with people who love to crap and back stab people, mixing with people who will create trouble..
well i don't think this is what people want right?
you said that it's the secret between us and you eventually tell him or her my problems and allow them to take me as a topic to talk.
so you considered yourself as a SISTER yourself?
OH MY... mixing with the Black monkey jumper and those crappy GIRLS?
Childish. I look down on you, you fucking loser!Get a freaking life, wimp!
and from now on, i will not try to argue or entertain with any idiots i encounter.
btw,I'm drowning in a pool of stupids around me..
AND i'm absolutely not afraid to offend people.
So stop stating the obvious just because it makes you seem like you have morals. In fact, you aren't.
Come on la, have you disabled your intellectuality abilities like those mama fucking assholes out there in the streets trying to get hook-ups yet failed so miserably & then give your senseless comments to ALL your friends?
Don't be so defensive luh, I feel so sad for you.*Evil grins*
BTW, wanna charge me for insulting you izzit?
come on!!!as far as I know, NO ONE told me that insulting is an offense too! & Further more, I didn't even state any name nor initials so what are you people talking about? Why do all of you like to own up on your own?
Not like I am writing about you?
You should really do some soul-searching and reflect on it. Frankly speaking,you should cut all that crap and bullshit of yours.I know you've been telling your friends how bimbo tic I am, and I know somehow there and then,they agree with you that i'm 'all that negative thing anyone could come up with'.Frankly speaking,I don't mind at all. I won't hate you even if the whole school perceives me as a 'bitch whatsoever' thanks to you. Like I mentioned,If bitching about me makes you feel better, then so be it. Seriously if you were to look back at everything(putting aside all that angst first), there'd be this significant difference between you and I. The good from the bad. I'm not self proclaiming but, I'm the good and you're the bad!
Lastly, I won't deny I've done or said several or infinitely many insulting and disappointing stuffs, going against you. However you've got to know, I was merely giving you back what you've given me.. So it's actually a form of self defense and I see no mistake in it. You should get the heavier sentence because you started it [: It's too late to apologize.
Last piece of advice, ALWAYS GIVE PEOPLE THEIR DESERVED RESPECT AND RECOGNITION. Don't only look at every one's flaws. The reason why we're on bad terms now's because you've focused too much on my flaws, so much so you could make even the littlest mistake I've committed , a big fat mistake! How niccccce -.- Anyway, this would be the last post about you and I'd love to say, I'm happier after letting my heart contents ! Say whatever you want to say about me and to those listening it, you should just trust whatever bad stuff she says about me. It's 101% true. After all, I'm a bitch, flirt,asshole and an arrogant ahlian ... Trust her! Believe i'm all that she's said.. Believe i've done every single bitchy thing !
Perhaps someday in the future, you might need me. Being friends for so long,I know you are burying all the bitterness in your heart. But sadly, I don't feel the sense of pain I use to at least develop for you . It is that bad - yes it is! Goodbye my friend! You're not the one I knew anymore.

Monday, 9 November 2009

ahhhh...
busy with many things
i wan meet BABY!!!!
baby i miss you!!!!
btw. ppl no need go find her liao-.-
thanks(=
i love you guys!

Saturday, 7 November 2009

I LOVE MY DARLING!!!!
baby!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
i miss you...
Dear~
even though we were far apart,i love you dearly with all my heart...

Thursday, 5 November 2009

Sunday, 25 October 2009

Saturday, 24 October 2009

hello peeps..
out with ms yeo to church just now and reach home at 11.30 pm
her church was funn eh.. not just fun i think..
message was not dry after all..
had prayer meeting yea..
i miss baby..
received a weird sms from him..
total freak me out.. any way.. cleared everything with him alreadyy
so.. i think.. ok ba..
hope nothing goes wrong..
went out with dear on my special day..
haha.. enjoyed that day uh.. although i dint get my top listed ppl to wish me uh.. quite sad uh...
but anyway..
i love babyyy
i really do miss him uhh
i dun wann to get separated with himm
baby..
i wanna tell you this.. i really do miss ya..
seriously..
I MISS YA BABY..
mwarkies(=

Saturday, 17 October 2009

back to blog(=
went to DOPE for lessons today~ danced 4 hrs without stopping..
WOW!
after dance meet my baby for dinner.. thanks baby!!!
baby brought me alot of things.. my camp items la~
baby have done too much for me.. i dunno wad to do for him uhh
any ways..
my nails cut into my flesh..
got 3 abrasion..
2 blisters
WOW!!!
i miss baby..
i miss joseph tsao...
i'll miss you in camp(=
mwarkies(=

Thursday, 15 October 2009

hey world!
i'm back!
watch many quite a lot of movie this week uh..
watched tsunami with class mates.. MEAT BALLS 3D with josephhhhh XD
5 more days to birthdayyy

Monday, 12 October 2009

被你爱过我真的很快乐被你爱过我更懂幸福了
你紧紧抱我温柔的我好痛突然我才懂你不是不爱我
izzit true?

Saturday, 10 October 2009

Yesterday
meet jeremy at town..
then go KBOX.. i think i was the one singing most of the songs can?
XD
cab down to boat quay..
chill abit then reached home @ 2 plus..
i feel so FKING emo today..
dunno why..
izzit because that i felt guilty of wad i've done?
or rather i still love him?
i still miss him or something..
i dunno seriously dunno..
all i want now is to cry my heart out.
看這你的照片想念就不段的浮現在我腦海裏
這種愛不到的想念....好辛苦。
好累。
如果有一天,我們在街上碰面,你會跟我說你好嗎?
如果有一天,我們在巧遇之下碰面,你會把我當透明的嗎?
傻瓜,你還好嗎?
我很想你。
真的很想你。

Tuesday, 6 October 2009

yea yeah.. just ended tuition uhh..
btw..
his gf view my blog today..
quite shock uhh..
not expecting her to view it.. but since had visited me, LETS WELCOME her ok?
dun be so bad and flood ppl's blog.. although i dunno who did it.. but please.. own up ok?
btw.. i miss my angel..
it was just an accident.. if not you would be here with me already..
sorry..
i dun dare to let ppl know about it also. and also.. believe it or not mr loh..
its yours..
i miss ya baby.. seriously..
but i still have to move on right?
now i have someone who love me so much.. but im not sure about the feeling though..
but promise to love you more ok?
and.. COUNTDOWN for BIRTHDAYYYYYY
你離開的那一天匆忙閒來不及說再見~

Tuesday, 29 September 2009

今天…… 累慘!
一大早就爬起來到學校去。
考試啦所以沒上課。
總之~一個字……
累!!!
靜怡今天跑來跟我說小王子怎樣怎樣……簡直是快把我給氣炸了。
所以就叫他自己到他的部落看咯。
xD 笑慘啦!!!真希望我可以跟你一起分享。
哦對了。
我有東西需要告訴你。
不過我想已經沒關係了吧……
要準備考試咯!加油!
你的鼓勵是我正需要的……你知道嗎?

Saturday, 26 September 2009

It's now 3.38 am 26/09/09.
JUST manage to finish my D&T coursework.
All drawing+ sketch!!
SHIT..
seriously it sux.No inspiration eh..
I suppose this time round.. D&T will cui..
seriously Cui..
Thinking of giving up DnT for Nlvl..But.. after much consideration,i realize that i only have a total of 6 subject. if i give up my D&T, Left With only 5 subject.
need to Pass my English, Maths, Chinese, COMBINE SCIENCE(which i'm weak at it)or my COMBINE HUMANITIES.
I got no mood to read my notes seriously.. its like reading and memorizing Scrips for presentation..
Hais..
Btw. did i share my experience with you all about my Adventure Training Camp last year?
haha..quite a scary one actually..
it's around 1 midnight when i was being send to the medic room with 3 madams carrying me..must thank jing yi for helping me uh..
that night.. got very bad cramps and headaches.
medic told me all because of exhaustion. yeah yeah.. exhaustion...
that night was a very creepy one..
i was lying in the medic room with another girl.
she was lying 1 or 2 bed away from me(i was at the corner)..
in front of me was another roll of beds uh.. behind the beds were A very BIG PATCH of bananas trees.
can you imagine??
i heard wind blowing outside at the patch of banana trees.
but the room remain cool but its not really very well air ventilated
next..
i feel Ex trimly weak.. wanna turn my body also gt problem-.-
i felt something. something looking at me.. but no one was there..
the girl beside me was COUGHING DAMN HARD. i felt this very strong stagnant air around me.
very very strong stagnant air. i did read some stories about my campsite at Ubin ok..
or rather ABOUT UBIN..
i Know something was there.. even if it is not looking at me but yea.. its over there..
i then forced myself to stay awake or rather there is more people outside..
in between the process of FORCING myself up, i naturally fell asleep after saying some small prayers.
and wake up again..
although i know nothing will happen to me coz the holy spirit is in me and god is with me. but yea.. just CANT SLEEP-.-
when i heard those terkan-er(sir) voice in the morning.. i just went into a very deep sleep. aka unconscious state.
yea yea.. was sent back home after that.
so... i ACTUALLY GT A PHOBIA GOING TO UBIN.. as in.. if i go in the morning back in the evening is ok.. but NOT overnights.
SO THIS YEAR ATC.. NOT GOING NO MATTER WAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, 24 September 2009

AHHHH~
Guigui updating here~
XD
yeah yeah~ cut my hair alreadyy..
shall post the picture next time ok??
Btw..
i dunno why..
i become jealous for some stupid reasons..
i dunno why..
dun dare to open up to baby..
yeas..
Baby having FEVERRR..
hais..
gonna go set my hair first and prepare for tml uh~

Monday, 21 September 2009



both songs.. tell you my feelings uh..
not gonna post more crap here..
but just last few sentence..
goodbye my prince..
再见我的爱.
如果我没有心脏就好了

Sunday, 20 September 2009

再见我的爱,亲爱的王子…
firstly.. CONGRATS to HUINI JIE JIE~engagement date~ taadaa~ 20092009~
secondly~ i woke up at 6 pm today.. late uhh.. XD
taadaa~ nt gonna emo today~ cause i gt no mood uhh..
update tml or at night ok?

Wednesday, 16 September 2009


在你离开之后的天空,我像风筝寻一个梦...
我很想爱他但是眼睛在说谎,隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他但是理智在吵架,退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答?
我轻轻地闭上我的眼睛不愿看见你离去的背影而你不再回头抛下我的伤痛回到属于你的柔情.
我慢慢地张开我的眼睛心爱的你已经离去.或许我并不该介入你的感情,不该毫无理由牵挂你.
期待的心灵在寻寻觅觅,我却遇见多情的你.
虽然我知道很难与你相依.却又千头万绪难以舍得情
我轻轻的闭上我的眼睛.不愿相信你离去的背影
或许并不容易轻易将你忘记,轻易从我生命里将你抹去.
你是我永远的痛。
我简单回答一句还好你点头微笑说过得好就好
你不自然的礼貌不停摆弄手腕的表
你想说的我已明了我想现在的她很快乐
希望你晓得这样做不值得
虽然我们曾爱过
但我不会让自己再重蹈覆我很快乐
请别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落
习惯一个人的我,并不是缺你不可
如果你是爱我的。就别让自己再犯错
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多,曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者。
疯狂和安静都快到达极限。泪流成直线却无法相连
你在我心里的断点,世界再大还是让你影子在身边
孤单的自由喜欢自我埋怨
有多少人想爱却看不到明天
我们有缘却偏要让它擦肩。
自从和你在一起,就已注定伤心
你说我是你唯一,这是个骗局
其实你背后早有别人。
我只是分享你们的爱
我的心已经被你撕裂
到现在我才明白。原来我是第三者
承受太多不快乐,眼泪出来嘲笑了。笑我太傻太执着,轻易相信了承诺。
痛苦出来折磨我…让我心里好难过
手机的信息,我舍不得删去
留着又很刺痛我盲目的坐着车
心无从寄托。难道就这样停止联络?
混乱思绪中。你模糊的笑容
仿佛渐渐远离我
最后那一刻在十字街口
誓言挽不回转身轮廓
分手是解脱伤心又如何
眼泪无法改变爱的法则
别说爱我心里却放两种结果
一个是她一个是我
晴空的午后刺眼的温柔
无心看你再回首
哪里才有我停留的角落
被迫寻找另一片天空
分手是解脱那伤心又如何
眼泪无法改变,爱的法则。
走遍熟悉的街区,寻找爱的证据
多少语言,心动情节,都变成回忆。
分手是解脱,伤心难免的。
如果我还有一点点不屑
别想要说服我纯洁的绝对
我只是世界上物种绝种的绝类
悄悄的失眠了一光年
如果我还有一点点不屑
那是我自己虚荣心在作祟
自以为或许有一天我们会重叠
我可以再爱你第二遍...
(p.s. it's day 5 since he left me)

Tuesday, 15 September 2009

A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than to hurt yourself trying to put it back together.
He came into my life a cool breeze.
Everyone knows that you can't catch air.
But I'm a fool and yes I tried.
And just when I thought I had him,
he slipped right through my fingers.
Like Air.If I close my eyes, I can still feel his arms around me.
Grabbing his hand and pointing at Orion.
Feel his breath on my neck, his body calming my cold shivers.
I replay that moment every time I blink.
I heard him tell me to open my heart.
I felt him open his.
And for the first time in a long time, I felt safe.
Every fear that I had .
Every insecurity vanished when he told me that he loved me.
So soft. So low. So gentle. So real.
He made my eyes melt. Made my ears bleed. Made my heart ache. And just like a cool sudden breeze- he was gone. Tears I cry in this endless dream
Pain I feel flows like a waterfall into the
river's stream
I hear the tune of sorrow and despair
Forever alone in this dark place but yet love does not live there.
"Don't cry my dear we can still be friends."
I let out a sigh and told him that this is the end. At that exact moment I felt as if I wanted to die, because everything he ever told me was a lie.
Pieces of my hear began to shatter even more,don't know where to start or where to began. To pick up the pieces so my heart can mend.
When you say those hurtful things
Shut up! And Go away!
Do you ever stop to think how they might ruin my day?
all the very hurtful things that you seem to love to say
Makes my self-esteem, seem to fade away.
I lay down to go to sleep but all I can do is cry
Thinking about those hurtful words,
That just make me want to die.
I get up each and every morning, Not wanting to go to school today
Because I am very worried
About what hurtful things you'll say.
We don't have to be best pals,You don't even need to be my friend
All that I am gracefully asking is that all the hurtful words should end.
(p.s. it's day 4 since he left me)

Sunday, 13 September 2009

just a short post before i sleep kkays??
many things went through my mind today..
yea.. mostly.. me and him.. not trying to say anything here just in case Jaymen korkor hate me =x..
i've deleted over 100 smses today. ALL from him uh.. since day 1 till the day before.
but yea.. although i deleted them.. but i think... i do remember them clearly uh..
When my heart is broken,the whole world is cast in the crushing gloom of despair.
and yeah.. it just hurt.. but i did not shed a tears for him today.. so is that good or bad??
Many people told or rather warned me not to get into "puppy love"but..
there's no such thing as puppy love. Love is love, no matter what your age and we all suffer from its loss.
I'm trying my very best to heal myself uh.. but..i just cant make it.. why??it’s like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar.I can close my eyes to things that i don’t want to see, but i can’t close your heart to things i don’t want to feel.THAT HURTS THE MOST I WARN YOU..
YOU BRING THE HURT HERE BUT YOU GOT NO GUTS TO ADMIT.
are you a guy or what??
I HATE YOU.. I FUCKING HATE YOU..I hate you...and then I love you...it's like I want to throw you off a cliff....then rush to the bottom to catch you...
do you know how I feel now??
hope so.. if not you are seriously just 1 FUCKING love idiot(you are 1 already)..
so.. I've decided to keep everything till the last.. let's wait till i cant take it anymore..then I'll fill in all the blanks..
Remember the feelings, remember the day My stone heart was breaking
My love ran away So I say goodbye
To everything I thought I knew To Everything I thought of you
To the love I thought was true To every one of the chances I blew
So I whisper It one last time 'goodbye I love you...'
and slowly pull the trigger
My heart is broken torn in two
my world fell apart all because of you.
text me if you gt anything to ask me.. or leave a message here..
(p.s. it's day 2 since he left me)
[LOST]
i just hate this..
nearly gt another exp..
dialed for help. yet no one was there.
all of a sudden my world is filled with darkness.
I was lost. There was nobody for me to talk to about all that you were troubling me with. So I sat alone, with everything inside, and cried myself to sleep.
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think.
Sometimes you don't realize you care for someone, until they stop caring for you.
For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are those "that might have been."
Letting go does not mean giving up but accepting that there are things that cannot be.
Want my advice? Stay mad as long as you can 'cause once you stop, it hurts like hell.
The same wall that shuts others out, is the same wall that shuts you in.
Its been so long, I feel so out of touch, thoughts cloud my heart and head, I think I think too much.
This is where I say I've had enough. No one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
Has your heart ever wanted to ask something, but your mind was scared of the answer?
All I wanted to do was collapse in someone's arms and cry today...but there wasn't anyone there to catch me.
I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.
So dear I love him that with him,All deaths I could endure.
Without him, live no life. by William Shakespeare.
yea.. agree.. i think..
Who knows how long I've loved you, You know I love you still.
Will I wait a lonely lifetime?If you want me to I will.
LOST at the moment.. text me yea??

Saturday, 12 September 2009

[big]我知道你还是爱着我(应该吧)[/big]
Looking through your eyes, there’s nothing to hide. And you’re no longer mine. How could I survive when you say goodbye. Why do birds still fly up high? Can’t stop the tears from fallin We used to be so fine when you walked into my life. I tried to reach out for you just to be with you. My heart is breakin
Don’t Don’t Go Away.
Baby, don’t you know, I miss you so.
Don’t Don’t Go Away, I’ve never been on my own before.
Can’t you hear me just take me with you.
So don’t don’t go away.
I’ve never been on my own before. So won’t you feel my heartbeat once more.
The days will always be brighter because he existed. The nights will always be darker because he's gone. And no matter what anybody says about grief and about time healing all wounds, the truth is: there are certain sorrows that never fade away until the heart stops beating and the last breath is taken.
And I learned a very important lesson.
Never take your loved ones for granted because you never know when their hearts will stop beating, and you won't have a chance to say goodbye.
i hate him for taking me for granted..
for not even bothering to prove to me his love..
i hate him because he always hurt me,i cried so hard for being so damn alone..
he doesn't even think of my happiness, he never bother to show me his love..
although he told me that he love me, i'm afraid that those words are just lies..
i don't know what i need to do, i'm so scared of losing him..
i love him so much.but it hurts me inside..

You told me once you loved me That I could believe in you
I was there when you needed someone
Where were you when I needed someone, too?
Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source.
It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing..
yeahh..
Last night I was thinking of you,
& a tear rolled down my face,
I asked the tear "Where are you going?"
The tear replied "There's someone so important in your eyes, there is no room for me."
I miss you so much & there is so much of me that wishes you were back in my life, but the worst part is I know we are better off apart, but I want you to know that I love you, & if it were up to my heart I would do anything to make this work..
i sacrifice myself.. what about you??
You can break my heart,
Crash it, Set it up in flames
and watch it burn.
Somehow it'll be reborn.
The second you cry 'Help'
Look carefully,and you'll see.
I'm always the first one
By your side.
OPEN YOUR EYES PLEASEEEEEE
I know..I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there, I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do, I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you and
you're not worth the tears, you're not worth the heartache. I don't know why I give you the time. You're not worth the pain, you're not worth the emptiness. I don't know why I wish you were mine.
Don’t Don’t Go Away.
Baby, don’t you know, I miss you so.
it's day 1 since he left me...

Thursday, 3 September 2009

I JUST DUN UNDERSTAND WHY...
you are tired so am i..
i just dun like this feelings..
this feeling is so familiar..
i dunno how to elaborate it..
but i'm sure its not because of my result..
i seriously feel like crying.. even if i know it would make me feel better,
but i think a hug from dearie would be better(=
i really appreciate the support you gave me..
yeas..
and i seriously cant really manage my time well now..
i mean.. i got no mood to study right now..
counting down.. 1 mth.. or rather 26 days to EOY..
i totally cant remember any rubbish..
how am i suppose to promote to sec 4 like this??
with all the stress bro is giving me
ARGH gonna crazy soon..

1 more day.. to holiday..
1 more day to dance..
2 more days to getai...
HAVING SUPER HEADACHEEE..
I WANNA MIT DEARIEEEE..
i might be troublesome..
but hope you know how i feel..
MISS=X

Wednesday, 2 September 2009

I MISS DEARIE LOHHHH
dearie is working hard uhhh.. XD
today... things dun work well for me..
first..
during recess..
accident happen...
that sotong FLY and kena my uniformmm...
2nd...
during DnT..
the paint kena my skirt..
abit still nvm.. but is ALOT...
1 big patch...
3rd.. during Dnt also..
cramp till i cannot stand up..
cab home..
went toilet check.. in the end.. DIARRHEA...
SHIT LA...
till mummy came home and gave me the medication.. but i still dun feel well..
i think i wont be going to school tml just in case ba.. no UNIFORM..
or rather.. i feel so sick...
i miss deariee(:
and i think i gonna have love sick soon..
haha..
just received a sms from dearie..
XD..
he is sooo cute can??
haha~
i just cant stop missing him..
hee~
and this time round.. mum took my phone and ask me the guy in wallpaper izzit my boyfee or something..
till then i was thinking.. if i say no she will scream.. if i say yes she will scream louder..
which one to tell?
then i just reply eh.. YA..
cannot uh?? i was shocked by her reaction..
-WAH NOT BAD UH?? quite cute><
DEARIEEE MUMMY SAY YOU VERY CUTE LEAAAA..
she did not scream the whole house like last time when she found my photo with my ex..
muhahaha..
surprise yea??
haha..
hope that time really give me wad i really wish for ya??
XD

lastly.. ENDING OFF WITH..
I MISS DEARIEEEEEEEEEE XD

love,
guigui

Monday, 31 August 2009

I MISS DEARIEEEEEE LOH!!!!!!!!!!!
><
i seriously miss him laaaaa..
i dun even know i can tarhan anot..
dearie have to work you see...
awwwww...
YITING is NOT HAPPYYY=(
cause she miss HER 1 and only DEARIEEEE
deariee,
dunno if you're able to see this post anot..
but..
i am MISSING you EACH AND EVERY DAYYYY
missing you...

received my SFC items..
DAMN HAPPY(:
meet up with deniseeee
talk talk talk talk..
haha
crap abit..
muahhha..

I FKING MISS HIM LA...
I MISS XIANG...
MISS DEARIE MOREEE
><
no matter wad happen, i'll be by your side..
even if i cant do much, but at least...
i'll be HERE waiting for you..
I<3 DEARIEEEEE!!!!!!!!XD

Friday, 28 August 2009


hahahah~
you post this pics in your blog SO i post mine too hahahaha!!!!
lols..
getai was a SUCCESS!!!
and sis allows me to sing next sun!!! WOOHOO!!
gtg~
byee

Tuesday, 18 August 2009

numbe 200 post..
5 words for today..
觉得很想死
no mood to talk now..
ps..
will say more in my another blog.. at least it's in chinese.. ppl wont understand much..

Tuesday, 28 July 2009

i dunno how am i suppose to start.
dunno how am i suppose to type all my emotions down..
well.. you can considered me as EMOing
but frankly, I'm not..
Imagine this..
why is a fifteen year old girl still wide awake at this time??
aren't she sick??
why is she still wide awake???
actually.. many things is running in her mind..
she wanna say a lot of things..
just that she got no one to turn to..
someone asked me a question the other day..
asking me if i would patch back with either one of my ex or not..
but after much consideration, i dunno..
he have done many things that really can shock-ed my life..
so i really dunno eh..
he had a gf who is loving him now.. but.. he have been doing many things outside..
well i dont think it will be good if i telling others about their stories right??
taadaa~
back to me..
i really dunno..
wad if one day..
he ask me for patch.
shall i accept him??
wad if another guy who once love me soooo much and now dont even considered me as his ex ask me to be with him again??
shall i accept him??
wad if that guy who cheated me ask me back??(i know i'll never forgive that kind of F**K!!)
所谓好马不吃回头草。不过马也有选择要吃哪里的草呀!如果他觉得那块地的草比较好吃,谁能阻止他呀?
for wad you all should know..
my longest relationship is actually not tat long also..
but.. i always wanna make changes in life..
wanna find someone tat can really make me happy..
even if i have to wait and pay the price, i'll do that also..





從來沒想過 不能再和你牽手
委屈時候 沒有你
陪著我心痛
一切都是我 太過驕縱
以為你會懂
一直忘了說 我有多感動

我知道你還是愛著我
雖然 分開的理由
我們都已接受
你知道我會有多難過
所以 即使到最後
還微笑著 要我加油

我知道你還放不下我
才會 在離開時
閉著眼沒有回頭
我們都知道彼此心中
其實 這份愛沒停過

曾經完整幸福的夢
在腦海裡頭
我多希望你 還在我左右

答應你 我會好好過
不讓 這些眼淚白流

i dun wan to shed my tears again.
promise me that you will lead your life well and treat the girl who love you soo much..
dont do anything bad..
she is such a good girl..
dont hurt her again ya??

with love,
guigui

Monday, 27 July 2009

提早祝那些生日的麻瓜生日快乐~
还有~祝小猪哥哥生日快乐~
哈哈~
鬼鬼病了快一个月了~大家有没有想我呀~ 有哦~
要想鬼鬼知不知道??

Friday, 24 July 2009

muahaha~
have been slacking with patricia and pups for the past few weeks.. and i might change my blog to those yahoo thingyy.. cause BLOGGER.COM is giving me problem.. let you all know asap ya??

Saturday, 20 June 2009

追S帮终于成立了~
超开心~
哎~
我遇见我失散多年的朋友耶~
他就是艾琳~
哈哈~
他也是S帮的哦~
哈哈~
我的宝贝们的宝宝好可爱呀~
开始长毛了~
好期待他们开眼睛~
好了
我先告辞了
拜拜~
鬼鬼爱阿祥爱惨了~

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

my triplets was born yesterday night...
haha~
they were so cute. tiny..
LOVE them!!
mummy love ya~

Sunday, 31 May 2009

鬼鬼觉得他好像有恋爱了!!
哈哈~
这个瓜~名字很特别唷~
自己猜吧~

Thursday, 28 May 2009

哈哈
终于可以po部落了!!!
超开心的!
最近在忙很多东西呢。
有为罗志祥罗主任举办的撑腰大活动。
替他撑腰^^
还有恭喜老豆。能建健康康地出院!!
明天终于可以回学校了。有点不习惯。
因为一经一个星期没去了!!
所以也很期待!!
希望我的撑腰活动会非常成功!!
祝福我吧~
爱鬼鬼

Monday, 4 May 2009

既然你不承认我也没话说了。
一直抱着一丝希望的我终于知道一切不可能重来。
如果你不小心看到这一篇文章时,不要怀疑。也不要认为说全是你的错
毕竟我们算已分开了很久。不过那只是一段回忆。
并不是事实。
我累了。
现在。。。我把手放开。
把那死抓着你不放的手放开。 让你回到以前的生活。
你走你的独木桥,我走我的阳光道
居然你已经表明了你的立场。 我想。。我们或许连朋友都没得做了吧。

放心孩子们~
公主没事。
我会很坚强得慢慢的熬过来。
不要担心呀~
I DONT NEED A BOYFRIEND I NEED A REAL MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
公主

Friday, 1 May 2009


hahahaha..
sorry for not posing for such a long time ya??
just to update on wad am i doing for the past week..
watch 17 again with lu..
quite a nice one.. just that the story line is abit boring..
grandmother's 80th birthday..
after 4 yrs of struggling of whether to go up on stage,
DAD finally went up to sing~
haha~
给老豆的话~
老豆~
你好酷哦~
虽然你犹豫挣扎了这么多年
不过~你终于豁出去啦~
要距续加油哦~
then...
took pictures tgt..
whole family.. but i dont think if for whole family the stage can stand lo..
haha
四代同堂耶~haha
brought 2 pairs of new shoeee~
haha
dad paid for it~
NEXT~
 GOT NEW PHONE FROM EDWIN ANG WEI TIAN!! hahaha
thanks BRO~ muahahah

colour my hair just now..
hahaha
colour not that obvious for now..
probably next week.
took off all extensions..
wanna cut hair..
took out for jr boss..
haha
have been trying to help boss to create a blog.. but some error occur..
haiz..
finish ALL my language paper le..
so..
PHEW>.<
next week.. math, ss, physic paper..
next next week.. math paper 2(shit uh.. TEACHER NOT IN SINGAPORE!! who help me revise><) chem, geo and last paper.. DnT..
vomit BLOOD LA....
miss quite alot of ppl..
CHEW YAN~beloved CGL.
DANIEL~away to japan.
GERALD AND BRO~ MIA FOR CG AND service._.
JOLENE SEOW!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY~.~ MIA FROM ME..PUI
and last..
HIM..
its always like this.. and i dunno why..
hais..
here to update some pictures ya??


from left to right: joanna,jeannes,meeeee
blur. but can guess who is it rite!.. its SHARON HONG~
found her @ grandma birthday~

dad on stage SINGING~~~~

taadaa~ pic taken by LU @ minitoons~
byee~
Princess Sumi~

Tuesday, 21 April 2009

hahahahaha
hey yo~
guigui is back in action..
haven been updating much.. cause busy la..
pass few weeks have been having quite a lot of common test...
i failed my english o.0
pass maths 34/50
pass chem 17/20
chinese haven get result..
physic.. forgotten..
fail geo..
then keep on having retest here and there.. cher say must test till pass lea..
VOMIT BLOOD!!!
please la.. wad for study for this kinda of subject when it got nothing to do with our daily life??
*FAINTS*

had CIP just now..
@ school.. 6.30 pm- 9.00pm..
badminton with some other ppl but not our school students..
they are from the outside..
they are people who leave in their own world..
so we have to volunteer to help them.. play with them.. open their hearts..
^^

have been helping boss to create a new blog.. but something just happen in the HTML..
lolz

trying to retrieve every thing back. SRY BOSS~ wait for a few days ya?? when i figure out wad happen..
PS eh~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i still miss you even though it have been so long..
it have been 4 month and 21 days since we both broke off..
and i still miss you..
i wrote a series of pages of my emotions in this note book.. just hoping that 1 day you might get to see it and know how i feel without you..
it's not fake..
but real..
you might think it's a joke..
but the fact is.. IT IS NOT..
i have been tolerating and hiding this feeling.
for so long..
trying to forget..
trying to break away from this r/s..
but i just cannot.. have to face you each and every day..
it's making me more worse..
you got a new love one..
and yea.. i know it..
i think..
hoping that you might come back and ask me to start everything again..
but.. i know..
it's impossible..
i always tell myself to let go.. but..
i just cant..
i cant forget the past.. i cant forget the things we have done..
but..
there is a thing i wanna tell you..
I STILL MISS YOU and I STILL LOVE YOU!
and also sorry...

Wednesday, 8 April 2009

RIP CHEEZY~

姓名:cheezy
性别:男
皮肤颜色:雪白
死因:身病年龄衰老。
死亡时间:下午四点五十九分
死亡日期:二零零九年四月七日
鼠鼠~
妈咪永远会记得你带给妈咪的快乐。
还记得你来到我这里时,你是多么的害怕。
还记得你咬我的手吗?还流血叻~
哈哈。
早知到那时就该多拍几张照~
酱妈咪才不会伤心呀~
唉。。
鬼鬼发现有人抄袭我的名字。
超火的!!
唉~
明天就是比赛了。
怎办??
青老师要我去当他的助手啦。
酱就不能去学校咯。
唉~
好麻烦呀~

Friday, 3 April 2009

BOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!
 haha
this week is the most tiring week i ever had..
i think.. haha
the lessons is like suckish la....
sian till siao..
btw..
i got bad news wor..

i cant go on stage for my show next week le..
too short...
wthhhhhhh
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA


lolz

kent told me that my modeling pics look like 20+..
where gt so old??
hahaha..
 gtg....
zzz
byeee

Friday, 13 March 2009

back to blogg
fever~
lols..
我昨晚看到流星耶~
好亮的一颗~ i wanna see it againnn
haha

so proud of dianeee..
LUO ZHI XIANG HUG HER LEAAAAA
i wan alsoooo
haha

anyways,
cheng yao this dance is rather challenging than easy.
haha..
gtg.. byeee

Friday, 20 February 2009


yup.
Stupid things ALWAYS happen..
did flag raising today.
ps lurr.. first time doing.. totally go super slow.
skipskip
lesson..
SS test.
GEO TEST.
EL TEST.
ALL CUI..
confirm DIE..
KNS..
BLOG TIO SPAM btw.
you can SPAM all you wan. i wont stop you. cause i know you are BLIND!!!!
=D
i wont delete the things you type.. i'm gonna show it to the world=D
鬼鬼

Wednesday, 11 February 2009

Sunday, 1 February 2009

我有重要的东西要宣布!!!
鬼鬼最近发现了两个卑鄙下贱的人!!!
你们因该知道我在讲谁。聪明人就会懂。
想我下战书。 是没死过啊?
我告诉你。这件事我是不会这么容易结束的。
想逃的话,没那么容易。
你最好别让我知道你是谁。要不我是不会轻易放过你的!
想挑战我。
好。
我在此接受你的挑战。
如果你输了我要让整个世界知道你做了什么。

Monday, 26 January 2009


hey ya!! first of all HAPPY CNY~
haha..
lets compare the both pictures up there..
it have been sooo long after i really took such a nice picture with someone.
haha.. FYI, the girl who took the pics with me is atikah from siling sec.
considered as EX siling le ba..XD
well..
for those who know me, i always take pictures.
and today, my bro ask me.. WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS TAKING PICTURES THAT IS REALLY FAKE.
meaning.. why am i taking pictures which contains lies. but not the reality.
i dunno also..
and i am always thinking..
can some one tell me why??
that answer can seriously help me slim down ALOT.
cause... when i think, i eat..
lolz..
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and i gt show to recommend o~ its 霹雳 MIT.MIT means mysterious incredible terminator.
its SUPER nice lorrr..
go watch~ muhahaha..
gtg.. byee
btw..
guigui is super sad nw..

Wednesday, 21 January 2009

Sunday, 18 January 2009

WOOTS!!!
it have been days since the last updateee~
guigui is busy la~
went to church in the morning..
then..
after service...
WENT SHOPPING WITH  MR LIONEL LEE AND MR GERALD TAN
never spell wrong rite!!!!
lolx~
btw~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SHARON AND YIJIE~

Wednesday, 14 January 2009

鬼鬼长针眼~。~
WTHHHHH...
my eye got mushroommmmm
WAAAA...

Sunday, 11 January 2009

SUPER TIRED

hey all.. guigui is back..
on fri.. training @ sch...
npcc again.. muahhaha
lolx
riffle drill..
now my hand de shape no nice le..
right hand got shape left no..
CCA open house..
hold de riffle AGAIN.. this time longer.. zzz
tireddd