yesterday night i was actually thinking...
what change will i have in my life?
i dont know.
back then life was easy. my schedule each day was to get people to dig me up, cab/bus to school, finish my lessons and when schools ended,lunch with classmates, other school mates, return home, nap and off to 768 for my dinner.
many asked me. no need do homework one mea?
and my answer at that time was, hack care larrr..exams pass jiu hao.
indeed. exam pass. and i even teach younger kids there their homework.
now and i reflect. i really missed out alot of fun that i can do in the day other than slacking/ sleeping/ gaming.
life was boring at that time. and school. even worst. got all my little kids to wake me up at 6. and i gotta cab to school almost 4 times a week @ 7am. reason being, i cant wake up at that fking 6am. den i got all my other friends who stay around me to meet me at latest 6.30am under my block. i was a very good girl at that time.
but what actually happen to me and cause me to be someone like now?
i admit. i was a very immature girl, and thinking that life was super easy. indeed. life was. at that time..
right now... my life was in a great mess. i see nothing in my future.
i was a waitress and a bridal assistant and i was not happy about it.
life was tired.
like mention in previous post, i was struggling between going back to school (private) or to continue wasting time here. but seriously, i haven made up my mind... i got the urge to go back. yet, i'm afraid that the urge may turn to the sian feeling. what should i do??
hais.... kill me pleaseee!!
my brain is fighting here and there...
let god decide the best for me... i think...